It's really hard to let your dreams go, but it happens sometimes and there is no other way. Colorful dreams of yours are fading in the lust of your mind's air.
I tried hard, maybe not enough but it seems that there are some forces more powerful than me and they want me to do this way. I'm always looking for someone or something that has ruined this bridge so I can't cross but with my full heart I know that it's just excuses to my unsuccessfulness.
Excuses
like Mom, Dad and their desires and problems instead of mine. yes,
excuses because they may hold me for some time but not that powerful to stop me or breaking that bridge.
But
what is really a success and what is a lost? who knows, maybe I am too
damned that I can't see anything. Like they say sometimes: " you should
see the full-half of glass instead of empty-half.", but as i said I
can't see the glass anymore and this confusion in more dangerous than
the rest of the things.
while you have a purpose and your problem
is that you haven't scored, you have a way to go and a bridge to cross.
But how about you not losing the way, instead you have forgotten where you were headed. Add this to the disaster that you even don't know where you are.
It reminds me of an special situation in the Ninja world of Naruto, where you have been stuck in a Genjutsu of
another ninja. The first way is to release chakra from your body to
disturb the opponent's chakra and get out of the genjutsu. But if the
opponents and its jutsu is greater than yours then you have no other
way to die if you are alone.
The only possible way of being released from the genjutsu is that one of your comrades send their chakra into your body and disturb the enemy's jutsu.
There is still hope. There is always hope. so let's wait for the comrades' chakra flows.
Reza